I've been in a very creative mood the last few days. I'm not sure how much can be attributed to things outside of my control (the sun being out past four p.m.) or habits I've been cultivating (writing every day, engaging with crafts and books every day, so on and so forth). Whatever it is, I'm grateful for it.

I even spent some time recording a cover of a song; I used to not be able to help myself once something was stuck in my head, but that habit has ebbed and flowed over the last year. It'll be interesting to see if anything "postable" comes of it. For now, I'm just exploring what tools other than Reverb can do for me. (Understanding that everyone is autotuned makes me want to try a little bit. Of course, if anyone reading this has production skills, please shoot me an email, cause there's nothing like a professional hand.)

With that said — and somewhat ironically — I feel like I'm also retreating into a shell. A chrysalis. A little over a year ago, someone asked me "am I closing off or am I growing up?" and it feels particularly relevant. I think I considered it as a title for an EP that maybe, someday, if all works out, will come to the web for a hundred people to hear (not because it won't be worth it, but because I don't know how to do TikTok marketing as required in our modern music landscape). I think it hits a little too close to home for it to be broadcast so purposefully. One thing to include it in a blog post, another to plaster it over my own face in something that could, in my wildest dreams, sit on a Target shelf.

Is it vain to keep these wishes in my head — is it worse to say them aloud? My horoscope tells me to "lose more gracefully."